The bosun said it, before he went over the side

“A bowline never grips a drowning man and never slips. But it has to be made in its order: if the working end does not round the standing part before it comes back to the bight, that is no bowline, it is a knot that shakes loose the moment it takes a weight.”

What you have done

rope loose
Five moves, one after another. The rope shows what you did.
Schooner Santa Eulalia · man overboard · 04:20
THE BOWLINE
03:00rope loose
Heavy sea, no light: the knot is tied from memory

THE BOWLINE

There is a man holding on to the side of the hull and a hawser in your hand. The knot this calls for neither grips nor slips, and it is always made the same way: five moves in an order that admits no change. Any other order gives a knot that looks like a knot until somebody hangs from it.